hey...

...sorry i havnt been writing the last few days have been hectic i mean i had graduation last thursday ..they held it in the cathedral near the school dont ask me why usually it is held in the school gym but it went well the principal gave some big long speech about how we are all growing into such lovely ladies and we are now to spread our wings and find our own way blaa blaa i was more interested in meeting up with my mates and having a good chat i mean isnt that what it shud be about its the worst thing to leave behind ..your friends ...then on friday i arrived in school early ran around meeting up with friends taking pics of every thing and one we where meant to be in our first couple of classes but me and a few of the girls decided to hide out for a bit of banter in the toliets it was good fun we got caught :P it was awards day...a day when the whole school joins together in the assembly hall for the last day of the school year and the teachers can give out gifts to the swots in your class while you sit there and watch half embarrased that you never get called out and half annoyed that you atually worked hard this year yet never seem to be noticed in the slightest ..i had a brilliant suprise waiting for me this year though there i was messing and laughing with aisling and the girls when when my art teacher walked up to present the art scholarships and the other art awards but i wasnt really listening to all that as i said b4 i never expected much as i have never been called up well you ccan omagine the disbelief when my mate amanda turns around shouting SHAN SHAN i was like what ?? she screamed at me to get up onto the stage asap!! basically pushing me the whole way there with me protesting that it must have been a mistake but no i looked up and saw ms ryan (the principal)staring at me with that get up here NOW! look on her face and nope wasnt a mistake she had called me! i still cant believe it to be honest well better late then never i guess lol....the end of awards day was the worst it started with my year head giving a heaartfelt speech in which she could barely finish due to welling up with tears and my friend ciara being handed an award which every girl in the school wants STUDENT OF THE YEAR!! i must admit i have never thought i would feel so upset about leaving this school all the troubles and times i have tryed to get out of going and now while sitting here writing this i realise i dont want to leave i dont no what to do with myself without school..it may seem kind of strange but school i guess has always been a place i could express myself in ways i couldnt at home eg in home ec or maths things i would only have learnt the basics of or even technology i would never have figured out how to use that CNC router or be trusted with a ban saw without chopping myself into pieces lmao! ...........so i guess although school and i have never had the greatest relationship i truely will miss it :(

shawty xxx

The Leaving Cert Song by Jim-Jim 2FM

yawn....DEBS!!

YAWN... so tired right now just woke up decided im not going to school today id rather stay home and study or at least try to just sitting here eating breakfast a bowl of porriage i managed to drag myself to make...here it is incase you dont no what porriage looks like ha
must admit though my mind is set on studying maths paper 1 and tackling that chapter on sequences and series i did wake up worring about debs again. for those who dont no debs is the irish equivilant to prom we have it at the end of the school year for the 6th years we dont have all of that prom king prom queen stuff but we do have best dressed and this year ive got to make it my turn ;) although i havnt even got the dress yet its set for september 1st but believe it or not this is preety late to leave dress buying:S most of my mates have theirs but dont blame me its not my falut i left it so late its just that i had my dress all planned out a backless white print dress >>this one ....

love it?? yea well i did too and it was on that newyork website so i thought oh no one else will have it (because that cant ever happen at debs its mortifying!!)but walked into a shop in town and their selling copies of the exaact same dress ...depressed i felt like crying ok i may not be the most girliest of girls and if i could id wear my jeans and converse to debs i mean luke wouldnt care(my date) but i really wanted to do this for myself noing id be looking back on these pictures i wanted to be proud of how well i looked back then and laugh at the effort i put into 1 day ...so forget that now its time to search i have 2 months to find the perfect dress ...AGAIN!!

I suppose speaking of debs what is the big deal? its meant to be a night the last night you get to spend with your best mates properly before heading off on the adventure of life...at least thats what my principal said but all ive gotten from it so far is the grief tears and perhaps bloodshed(when i have to fight someone for that dress! lol) i mean i go to an all girls school yet we must bring a date? i must admit i was lucky in this area as i have been best mates with 2 lads i would love to bring for years the only downside was that they both knew this so picking one as torture..i could have lost friends!! but thank godness they understood. next the dress and the hair the make-up ! i dont get way every =thing must be so fake though i mean come on girls weve seen you torn down hair all oveer the place sitting stressed out with exams but you insist on having fake tan fake eyelashes fake hair wouldnt be surprissed if you turned up with fake BOOBS!! then theres the lad see lads dont care that its 10 mins to debs and they have only just got the suit so we must along with ourselves keep suttlely reminding them that they need a tie that matches oh and of course forget the crosage and i dont care youll be going to debs in a wheelchair!!.yet i am ashamed im being dragged into this vicous vortex...............

love shawty

xxx

realisation 3 weeks to go :S...

well....been a mad week i havta say thought my art was on the thursday turns out NO was on the TUESDAY!! so mad rush to get everything done but i did :) so hapi except the fact that i had ta run round town ta find a fish to draw then bring the fish into class where it stunk out lol but all in all it went good now i just have to pass my art history :S ....me and my best mate amanda were so hyper in science the other day we were doing this experiment for emmobilising enzymes its really cool what happens but we were poking each other on the arm and she pushed me gently and my chair turned and i fell as if in slow motion across the room basically slid across the floor lol then got back up and went to turn on the tap but it didnt come on so i turned it slowly and cautiously noing what skul facilities are lyk lol and suddenly the hose falls off and waterr comes spraying out everywhere!! opened my eyes luked down soaking wet!! luked at amanda killin herself laughing SOAKING WET!! luked at the girls behind staring at me with an evil luk water dripping from their faces and all over there books lol!! then i burst out laughing and sat down just in time for the teacher to walk in take one luk at me and say CLEAN IT UP!! how did she no it was me?? dnt ask!! lmao

awhh im going to miss skul so much nxt year ..my friends esp ive been best friends with most of them forever and my best mate ash well were practically an old married couple weve been together for 13 years now and i dont no how were going to cope we do everything together and weve beeen through everything breakups fights fights with other people our friends suprise pregnancys!! was hard enough when i decided to do tech instead of home ec and we wernt in the same class :S i no il get through it tho and theres no chance we wont stay in touch...sori i no im kinda going on a bit but think about it how much would you really have gotten through if you hadnt got your friends for support you know??

oh i have a interview on nxt thursday for a further education college just to help me finished my portfolio and that but i really hope i get in wish me luck!!:) interviews are hard like what questions do they ask and they never ask questions you know a good answer for like why do you want to come here um...becoz i want to use you so i can get into a better college :D or why do you think we should accept you um...because you no u want to deep down :P seriously its stupid becuse your just going to bullshite your way through to hope to get a place when the person after you will say the same things...i also think the points system for the leaving cert is a joke A higher level 100 points A ordinary level 60?? and the points to get in to colleges are ridiculous 700 points for art college!! when even enstein failed maths yet is known as one of the greatest minds the world has seen and artists can pop out of anywhere just look at the graffiti around the underground in london it shouldnt be about how you got an A in honors maths or a B in biolgy it should be about the passions you have and the works you produce....

oh check out www.google.com\embarrasingmoments for a good laugh or www.examit.ie for last minute revision and good sample answers for english xxx

gotta draw!!

short post ..........guess its my own falut spent all day in town the usual and now gota spend alll night doing my prep for art 2mr ...really dont wana coz i no ms nolans just gona turn round and draw all over it and ill avta spend another night trying to come up with the design its for milan fashion week poster i have all my ideas thought out but putting them to paper is a different story :S..............oh anybody looking for debs dresses for reasonable prices should check out www.newyorkdress.com :)

day 1

hum..... starting the leaving cert 9th of june and what am i doing starting a blog? dnt ask ... saw that movie julie and juila the other day the one about this woman who blogs about her childhood love of cooking and love of the late great julia child and although i usually dnt follow things like this decided i was stuck in a rutt and needed something new .....what do i write?

well im doing 7 subjects

technology

art

english

irish

french

biology

and maths ..

i have just finished my orals in french and irish ....irish went better then i expected tbh ...you learn and you learn and you have the grammer all thought out in your head then step into the room and where does it all go ..DOWN THE DRAIN you study and study yet the more you learn the more that seems to fall out :S.....i do have my art exam on thursday nxt tho and i must admit i am looking forward to it i have been in love with art from ever since i can remember and i sooo want to get into art college the year after nxt i havnt decided what to do tho but i think im heading towards fashion and textiles ...that brings me to the biggest thing on my mind and im sure most 18 yrolds minds THE DEBS ....someone explain to me why these things are so expensive the tickets:120 euro the dress:200 + and then theres the date!!! how am i meant to focus on study when i have a debs to plan???...............